only by the Grace of God

Only by the grace and mercy of Jesus could a woman stand in a church greeting hundreds of people and smile and make you feel better with her husband's Open Casket- Right there... Amazing is the only word I have for such a woman- her faith in Jesus is the only thing that is getting her through all of this sorrow, she said.
I don't know if I could do that. I was in awe of her strength and courage during visitation.
I am singing at the funeral tomorrow. the funeral of a young man. with 2 little girls, just like me. Praying for continued peace for this precious family, especially his mom.
Jesus, we will Never Ever understand- but please bless them with your comfort, your healing, your hope for a future filled one day with smiles even though they will miss Brett everyday.

Heavy Heart tonight

One of our church members lost his life today with a sudden illness that was not expected. He was in the ER last night, however they sent him home and assumed everything would be okay. It wasn't ok- he passed away this morning. He left here his wife and two little girls. He was 38.
We are not close with this family, however we do go to church and she teaches the little ones at MC's gymnastics facility.
Oh, Sweet Jesus... I have been so very heavy hearted today.... I know God has a plan. but . i . don't . see. it. i. don't understand. i keep trying to place myself in his wife's shoes and i loose my breath.
So many similarities... he was a Very active parent. i have seen those two little girls in his arms so many times every wednesday nite.
my heart is so sad for their family. my heart cries to Jesus for comfort for them.